Friday, January 15, 2016

Go Big or Go Home

I am taking an online class taught by Brene Brown for the next two months, and if you're a faithful reader of this blog, you know already that she is one of my sheroes. I love her no-nonsense style of talking that cuts right to the meat of any issue, and I find her endlessly quotable.  

So prepare yourself, because I predict many blog posts will come from this experience as I have epiphanies big and small, thanks to her words.

This week's lesson was based on the first chapter of her book, Daring Greatly and it delved into the topic of courage. One of the things that she said struck me like a hammer to the thumb, reverberating into my consciousness and making me really think.  She told us that, for much of her life, she consciously "engineered smallness" into everything she did. While she may have had big dreams, she purposely did things in small, safe ways that would mitigate her level of risk because she didn't want to get hurt or look like a fool or fall flat on her face.  

It takes a lot of courage to step out of that mindset, and some people never do. I think it's akin to flying under the radar. You're still technically flying, but you are really looking to not get noticed because you don't want to get shot down. But the irony there is that you end up becoming resentful and unfulfilled.  I know, because I've done it that way for decades.

I, too, have engineered smallness into my life, dreaming large and taking baby steps, all within my comfort zone. Wishing that my work and my passion might "get discovered" one day, but without putting it out there for the world to see, what are the odds of that? It isn't often that I send my writing to big outlets because I am both worried that I will be ignored or rejected, but also because, if they do publish it, how will I feel when the trolls come out and say horrible, horrible things about me (because they will)? 

It sounds trite, but all of those old adages are true:

Nothing ventured, nothing gained.
No pain, no gain.
If you don't take the leap, you'll never know whether you can fly.

I was happy for a while, living a safe life. Until I wasn't. There was a time when safety was more important to me than courage, but I've changed. And while I am under no illusion that courage won't be painful from time to time, I am willing to suffer the blows that come with living my values, if only so that I can say I did. It doesn't make me feel very good about myself to live a life that doesn't align with my values, and even if I get hurt or laughed at, I'd rather say I tried. 

It occurred to me this morning that the people I most revere are people who live with courage and demonstrate it in important ways.  The people who engineer smallness, who live in fear and advocate shrinking down, who shy away from the real work because it's hard - those are not people I am interested in. It is the people who acknowledge that there are scary, challenging things out there and still forge ahead who have my respect. Those who choose the easy fights (ahem, every GOP presidential candidate) and criticize without ever really putting on the armor and risking something important? I'm not a fan. I'd rather align myself with folks who dig deeply, who feel strongly, who rise to the level of courage and risk personal disaster.  May I be one of them. Here's to engineering greatness in my own life. 

2 comments:

Carrie Link said...

Here, here!

Elizabeth said...

I don't know how I missed this post, but I understand from your newest one that you're percolating and stewing. All things unfold and come. I know that.

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